Unattainable Goals: Should We Entertain Them?

For me, tonight was the night.  I was reading a book on SM and she said: "I don't know why you're reading that when you can go to the source."

"Because the source refuses to talk about it," I replied.

"The source has boundaries."

Then <click> right back to the brother & sister mode as if the exchange never happened.  Fuckin' cold, or is it just me?

I want out.  I don't want to play this sick game anymore, but, the hard truth is that I'm afraid to be alone.  The other reality is financial as my income is not going to be enough to support two households.  My immediate plan is to move out of the bedroom.  Second, consult with a lawyer.

Everyone here told me the water was boiling, but I had to stick my hand in and find out for myself.

Bright side (sort of): I wasn't hit with another task.  I would, however, like to find out what the "boundaries" are, just for the hell of it.

She's down there now on beer number 2.  There will be 7 - 8 empty cans before she comes up to bed.


4 cats up here tonight, I think they know I'm freaking.