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Post by tiredoftears on Apr 29, 2021 2:42:41 GMT -5
Fully vaccinated! 😁
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Post by tiredoftears on Apr 2, 2021 2:09:40 GMT -5
Tiredoftears, do you have a person that you can team up with that would also want to lose some of the weight gain? I was in a group before my cancer surgery and lost about a pound every 4 to 6 weeks. Unfortunately, I was prescribed prednisone for some side effects and re-gained all of the weight that I lost in the prior 18 months. We quit meeting because of Covid, which didn't help. If I stay up late, I eat, so going to bed on time lessens my snacking. I am walking on a treadmill because the weather in my area was really cold until recently. I am not looking for fast weight loss, just a little weight loss every month. Getting out and doing things also lowers my dissatisfactions, which I was trying to cover up with food that made me happy or less frustrated. I do not enjoy spending much time with people in social settings. One reason why I do not keep friends. I would not enjoy trying to lose weight WITH someone. Sounds like a burden. I am quite sure that is great advice for social people, or people who enjoy friends and activities. I started back on the diet plan I had a few years ago when I initially lost a lot of weight. The difference is, there is a lot more added stress, and less options for things I enjoy to release stress. Hence why I am going to take up marijuana. It is something that helped me cope decently enough in my younger years.... Actually, those are the years I could actually tolerate being around people regularly. Maybe it will help me in that aspect too,and if so,then I'll try your advice.
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Post by tiredoftears on Apr 1, 2021 20:36:53 GMT -5
From CNN Health www.cnn.com/2021/03/24/health/weight-gain-during-covid-wellness/index.html"On average, people gained about 0.6 pounds every 10 days or 1.8 pounds per month during shelter in place (Feb to June 2020) orders," said cardiologist Dr. Gregory Marcus, one of the authors of the research and a professor of medicine at The University of California, San Francisco I gained forty from December till now. Three months.
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Post by tiredoftears on Apr 1, 2021 20:36:10 GMT -5
They won't give the covid vaccine to kids under 16 until they have done some trials. Pfizer just started a trial on children 2 days ago. You will have to depend on herd immunity at some point? or not. Don't need to answer. We just brainstorm and take what you like and leave the rest. Best to make sure you do everything to check then strengthen immunity and protect yourself and your child. I would think you would have some idea of your child's immunity based on previous years. It is an easy study. I liked Worksforyou2's comments/suggestions, if not for you, for someone else. The average weight gain in USA was 20-30lbs. You are not alone. I also gained weight I need to dump. One of our UK members is awesome at weight loss. This difference is I gained 40 pounds from December to now. That's A LOT for three months. I'm going to start smoking weed. See if that helps lower my stress.
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Post by tiredoftears on Mar 27, 2021 17:07:30 GMT -5
I've long wondered how much of my depression can be attributed to a SM. 50/50? 80/20? I always say I've had depression dating back to my teens...but have I really? I mean, what teenager isn't depressed? There was a period of years in my 20's where I had no real direction, but I don't recall being overly depressed...and at least I was getting laid then. So it begs the question, if I woke up tomorrow with a sex life, with someone who wanted sex as much as I do, someone I could have fun with, someone who I could share my innermost desires with, would the depression be less? Would I worry less, dread my job less, be less fatigued? Or would I be out of it either way? I don't know, because I haven't been sexually fulfilled for over 16 years. Is the lack of intimacy so strong that it can drive you to be a stranger to yourself, turn all tastes sour, push you over the edge with depression? I think yes. I think yes too.
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Post by tiredoftears on Mar 27, 2021 16:37:59 GMT -5
Just a thought ...Perhaps there are other parents in your neighborhood who have children roughly the same age as yours. If so, and if they are interested, schedule play dates on alternate days of the week to give you some time on your own to recharge. Your child could probably use some time in the company of others her own age. It seems children are less prone to catch or spread Covid19. School attendance seems to be bearing this out. I am pleasantly surprised that grade schools in NC are reporting few incidents of actual infection following possible exposure to the virus. Your child is probably far safer than you are. I FAR disagree. For example, perhaps there is only a .01% chance if I let my child play kickball in the street they will die. I still will not let them play kickball in the street. And I will still fear for their safety anytime they are near one. the amount of stress that causes me just to think about them going into a public space with other children is overwhelming and I am incapable of dealing with it. so we do not go to the park that is less than one block from our house anymore. I have never been able to deal with other people so I cannot just me random people from around the neighborhood with other kids, because I am weird and I don't get along with people. That's where my neurodivergences come into play. So thanks for thinking that you're helping me giving me advice, but it is honestly zero help.
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Post by tiredoftears on Mar 27, 2021 6:33:34 GMT -5
I don't particularly want any responses to this. I just want to put it out there, know that someone has seen it,so that I know someone has "seen me". To think maybe they have a notion of the pain I am in.
I am currently (and have been) upset and frustrated by the fact I have life obligations now, (mainly my child) because if I had never "settled down", I would have no one to worry about and I could be fucking any and every one willing, because if it was only me I had to worry about - I would not care about covid-19 at all.
But now, because I have real life things to worry about, I have no fucking sex life because since my partner decided he'd rather only masturbate and I have to spend time and energy into finding other willing random whatever's for my "carnal needs"...... UGGGH! I can't. For an undetermined amount of time. Because my job is to keep my kid safe and healthy and happy, and make sure they are thriving, and I cannot risk their life for my needs,even though this is seriously fucking with my mental health. All the weight I lost? Yeah. I'm up from 190 to 230 now because I have nothing else that gives me "comfort" other than food. And I am tired of it. I am so tired of eating.
I am tired of living undiagnosed too. Everything points to I have a combination of ADHD and autism. And I am not coping well. And I have an acute fear I am going to have a nervous breakdown/meltdown what the fuck ever if I can't...... Idk.
Since December,three relatives have died of covid-19,one was in ICU for two months and is still on oxygen and using a walker, and she was in great shape beforehand,walking miles every day. Another has covid psychosis, which is TERRIFYING. it has been months and they don't know what to do because NOTHING HAS IMPROVED HIM, not the meds, not the shocks, they are at a loss.
Can I PLEASE just be given a deadline for when I can get my kid a fucking vaccine, so I am not quite as worried?
On a happier note, my kid read four full sentences today, without help, out loud, off the homeschool type paperwork I am improvising with that I print from online. So proud of my four year old. Every day we work on emotional intelligence, on top of what regular school stuff is.
I'm proud. I'm tired. And horny. But I come last. Sigh.
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Post by tiredoftears on Aug 20, 2020 18:17:38 GMT -5
JMX, I’ll agree that Covid will perhaps drive the biggest advancement in support of home schooling. I recall hearing about, perhaps even at a federal level, legislation that educational funding should follow the student to whatever type of education they prefer - home schooling, private, charter, or public. As for Cardi B... her music is in the fringe of genres I listen to. She has a distinctive sound as a performer, and she adds a unique accent to collaboration pieces; as a person, she holds no particular relevance, so I can’t comment there. The song... will surely be popular in rotation at strip clubs, where it’ll fit right in. I’m sure after her media shock wave, few will ever hear it again. I have to say, as a fan of Prince’s music, I can’t really throw stones. Darling Nikki and Computer Blues were similarly risqué for their time, though I think they had a little more class. I’m sure that sex clubs and strip joints are probably the only places you’d hear them too, if I didn’t have them in my phone. ;-) Anyone remember this song?
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Post by tiredoftears on Aug 20, 2020 18:14:25 GMT -5
JMX tiredoftears What do you girls think about WAP? ...the song Radio lyrics version Explicit version I am in love with this song. I do not particularly like Cardi B when she TALKS, her speaking voice and laugh annoy me, but this song is amazing
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Post by tiredoftears on Jul 31, 2020 5:04:16 GMT -5
hopingforachangeHe watches soft vanilla type porn mostly. Shit that I find boring. HandyIt is not an ED problem. DryCreekNo... It doesn't motivate me to do anything different... I don't think? Can you give me an example of what you thought of in that question? cagedadventurerThank you for the compliment. jamesbondingWhile that may have been helpful advice in the last, I have actually killed any desire I had for him, and accept a platonic relationship. I am anxiously awaiting the pandemic to ease up, or a vaccine to be created or something so I don't fear a hookup with a rando. blueguyYeah, I prefer being with an actual person too... But to each their own, I guess? baza"He doesn't appear to have the skill set, the motivation, the orientation, or most importantly, the desire to be a suitable person for you to have a sexual relationship with." Thank you. You are right. He's not a bad guy, he's a really great guy. He just.... Needs to figure out a label to give me peace of mind. I know he's different, and I'm fine with that, as long as I'm not being lied to, and I have some way to title what he and I are, or what his sexual orientation is. Pretty sure he's a pornosexual, and that's fine, if he's just honest with me. I understand your desire for a nice, neat label to understand your husband. Back when I was married, I wanted one too. Is she asexual? Hell, is she gay? If I only had such a label, it wouldn't be "my fault". It would be on her and I could achieve some level of peace. I never received such an answer, but ballofconfusion did. Her ex is an out-of-the closet homosexual. I can tell you from her experience, though, knowing the "label" for certain does not make it easier. Quite the opposite. The need to know and presumed peace that comes with it is simply replaced by a feeling of "how the hell could I have not seen this" and "I wasted so many years with that man." Rather than focusing on the "why" of a label, try it accept the only label you truly know for certain: "I am in a sexless marriage". The why simply doesn't matter. Make your peace with THAT label and then choose from among your three options: Stay, cheat, or leave. Well, he and I decided together he is a pornosexual, and it DOES give me peace of mind. It is kind of hard to cheat, when he is encouraging me to have sex with other people, lol. I'm not going to leave him, he is kind, and an excellent provider, plus I can still have sex with other people? Yep, fine by me, now that I have a label. It makes it easier to explain to potential lovers now. I currently have one lover, but have explained that right now, I don't have the intention of sexual exclusivity. Initially, that is what I was seeking, and I want to get back to that point, but after the eye opener event the other weekend, I just want to get laid. So I am going to be having sex (always protected) with other people for.... Idk.... A little while. I actually just had a minor surgery today, but as soon as I am healed up,I sure am about to be fucking like crazy.
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Post by tiredoftears on Jul 24, 2020 13:55:09 GMT -5
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Post by tiredoftears on Jul 16, 2020 22:52:12 GMT -5
Well, since my recent post "Last Night" I have been very upset. I have been crying every day, usually when my partner isn't home, but today I was crying after they got home too. Kiddo had been asking why I've been crying. I am trying to teach them healthy ways to deal with emotions, so I cannot just tell them it's none of their business and the types of things my mother would have told me. I also will not lie to my child. So... I told them it is because I need an adult friend, but I can't make an adult friend because of the virus, since I can't go meeting people who might have the virus and get everyone in my family sick.
They said I have "Daddymomma"(what they call their father) for an adult friend. I said "No, I need another adult friend."
Tonight my child told their father I have been crying because I need an adult friend. And I sat in the recliner in my child's bedroom and cried and answered their questions. I sleep in this recliner, and on my kiddos floor. It is not uncomfortable! I like sleeping here. I feel loved in this room. I know I am wanted in here.
Anyway, yeah... So crying sucks. So is not being able to get a booty call because I'm worried about this virus, and now, I am worried because someone at my partner's place of work tested positive for covid-19, so.... Now it's just kinda like.... Welp....? He's mad because he's been saying people need to stop eating in the lunchroom all together like that.(he eats in his car or at his toolbox) He doesn't come into contact with that particular employee, but that employee DOES hang out with the guys that work in the stalls next to Ernest. So.... I guess it's a waiting game. No point in getting tested right now. If you get tested too early, it comes up with a false negative. So🤷
I'm just getting.... Close to a breaking point. I can feel it. A nervous breakdown is on the way... If I don't get "an adult friend" in me soon. Any body part will do.
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Post by tiredoftears on Jul 15, 2020 17:41:37 GMT -5
Worksforme2 So he pays her a grand a month.............I would say that woman is evil. Or terrified to come out as gay.....
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Post by tiredoftears on Jul 15, 2020 11:47:32 GMT -5
DryCreek I very much consider it a type of poly relationship, yes. sadkatI agree, he will never stop. It is just who he is, and that is fine, now that he has been honest about it. I forced him to have a long talk last night too. He did not like that at all, as he is not into emotions and talking about them, or any type of confrontation. But we agreed he is a "pornosexual", and we are going to have a type of "polyandry" relationship. Thank you. greatcoastalAgree. Intimacy was never a priority, or desire, of his. I believe it is because he is undiagnosed on the autism spectrum, and that is just who he is. He has never been able to form very intimate bonds. ApocryphaAll that information was very helpful, and I read it all to him during our conversation last night. Thank you for sharing and educating. @workingonit Sexual anorexia, and intimacy anorexia in general. @tooyoungtobeold Yeah, porn doesn't do it for me like that. I cannot endlessly scroll and be content and stuff. I find a video to suit my mood in less than ten minutes, and the actual act of masturbating takes me less than five, usually around one, honestly. For me, I prefer when porn is supplemental to a healthy sex life, not the only option. mirrororchidThank you.
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Post by tiredoftears on Jul 13, 2020 14:12:55 GMT -5
itmedrill down through these quoted excuses ^^^^^ and get to the heart of the matter I just want him to be honest with me, and himself. I know he's different, and that's fine, but lying about it is uncalled for. He would have saved us years of stress (and me a lot of pounds of weight) if he had just been honest from the get. Btw, I have lost about a hundred pounds this past year. Yay! lessinghamWell, with the assumption that he may have a porn addiction (which was an original suspicion, now I think it may be a combination of things) it was advised to refrain from all porn to restore "natural desire", which is what those type of people have to do. Some people can easily enjoy both, some can only do one or the other. HandyWhile I am into other things, and he is aware of that, the sex we had was usually me on top, him just lying there. Because it was easier for him. Then, it suddenly became too difficult to even do that. I wasn't asking him to be adventurous, because I knew it wasn't his thing. So that is not why. DryCreekUnder X conditions, I’ll continue to plug the gaps in our relationship with other lovers, even though it’s not as convenient / regular / intimate as I’d like. He said if I form a good bond with someone, they could move in. So... It's just the finding someone bit... This was a conversation we had in October last year. It is just very difficult right now, because of the pandemic, and I am just very leery of inviting strangers into my home, that could potentially have Covid-19. Condoms don't prevent that.
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