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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 19:42:46 GMT -5
Wow, that sucks!
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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 19:26:51 GMT -5
19 years and counting...
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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 19:24:58 GMT -5
I finally came to terms with the fact that I wasn't ever going to get my "fix" in my current SM situation. So I'm moving to a different venue and still have the hope of getting my "fix" soon.
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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 19:18:31 GMT -5
Rhapsodee is staying and making the best of the situation. Would be very interested in hearing the secrets of your staying successfully.
This year it got to be too much for me to handle anymore. I realize my situation is never going to get much better (if at all) and I don't want to spend my remaining years alone, suffering in a SM. I need love, companionship, excitement and new lover(s).
Right now it's very tough day to day, but I have an exit plan I'm working on I'm pushing on. I think I'm going through the hardest part right now, just waiting for the countdown clock to get to launch time. I think of the many hours before launch the astronauts have to wait in anticipation for the trip. I'm feeling the same way right now. I have to keep whispering to myself "patience, must be patient".
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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 19:10:56 GMT -5
No, the 19 year drought is too much to overcome. I need a fresh start.
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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 19:05:57 GMT -5
Hey Rhapsodee, If you ever need a "solo driver" for your "solo vacation" let me know.
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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 19:01:12 GMT -5
Barbara Eden! (I Dream of Jeannie)
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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 2:23:32 GMT -5
Answers for sadkat: A. I love being touched everywhere during foreplay and I love being able to touch a woman everywhere. I love it when a woman plays with me through the outside of my pants and then works her way inside, through the zipper, outside my drawers and finally inside my drawers. OMG mmmmmmm ! B. Since I haven't had sex in 19 years now, I miss EVERYTHING!!!, Touch Taste, Smell, staring into her eyes and seeing her smile, hearing her voice and moans, EVERYTHING dammit! C. If I were offered a one-night stand by a complete stranger, YES I would take it. I'm so horny, I feel like I may die this way. But my problem would be I'd be unprepared for the event, that I might be too nervous to enjoy it. I would be so flattered that someone would find me attractive enough to want to be with me sexually after such a long time. I guess that if I really screwed it up, I would hope she would be understanding and maybe give me another chance, but that's not likely to happen. So I would need to make sure my head was "in the game" for her needs to be met so that I might be desired again in the future. I know I have the capability to do that but it was a long time ago when I did that.
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Post by solodriver on Sept 21, 2018 1:11:52 GMT -5
Here's mine: A. Yes I close my eyes when I kiss. I enjoy the sensation and feelings that sharing the kiss invokes. B. Oh yes, I fantasized about several of the teachers from my junior and senior high school. I actually have a photo of one I was in love with, she was young, out of college only a year and VERY attractive. I found the picture a few years ago and told my wife who she was and my wife said "I can see why you liked her." My fantasy with her was that I would stay after-school for extra practice. During warm weather, she would wear loose tops that would show me "heaven" as she leaned over my desk. She would smile at me and put her hands on my bulging cock and rub it for me. Then she would sit on my lap and rub her hiked-up skirt on my bulging cock until I came. She's push my head onto her boobs as I came. But she never tried to let me penetrate past her panties. C. I occasionally watch porn if my imagination isn't giving me enough excitement. I love reading the stories that other people have shared and imagine I"M the guy in those stories. I do have a pretty open, wild imagination, and in my mind I'm willing to try most anything! Hasn't translated to real life yet, but who knows...
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Post by solodriver on Sept 20, 2018 8:40:52 GMT -5
I was thinking of "Deliverance" but I didn't like the video from the movie for just that very reason, so I ran across this and thought this was funnier and better. Imagine that you're paddling by and in the woods is Kermit and Steve playing "Dueling Banjoes"
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Post by solodriver on Sept 19, 2018 21:30:40 GMT -5
I had a funny thought about this this morning while I was shaving and getting ready for work.
A good picture needs a good tune.
How about this?
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Post by solodriver on Sept 18, 2018 20:19:20 GMT -5
You go girl!
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Post by solodriver on Sept 17, 2018 1:35:24 GMT -5
workingonit described it perfectly for me
It's been SO LONG (19 years) I no longer have any attraction for her.
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Post by solodriver on Sept 16, 2018 9:39:44 GMT -5
Wow what a piece of work.
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Post by solodriver on Sept 15, 2018 13:22:30 GMT -5
Sorry for another reply to this so long after everyone else. I'm a little slow to process. 😁 I realized that what's bugging me about this situation is bigger than sex for weight loss and the prostitution angle. I don't think I want to be making deals with my sweetie for anything. Yes to "Ok we both want to get snuggling faster, I'll take out the garbage and you throw the dirty dishes in the sink?" No to "If you started driving me to work everyday, I'd start cooking for you." Maybe I'm too romantic but I want to do things for sweetie because I'm crazy about her, not because we struck a deal. Maybe I'm not being very practical or pragmatic. I guess deals like this get struck all the time? Better than covert contracts I guess. Sorry, just thinking out loud. I agree. In a loving relationship I do things because I want to.
Looking back, my refuser started playing that game years ago. I call it the If You Do This, I Will. . . game. except in her game, every time it was her turn to play, there was ALWAYS an excuse why she couldn't. And I always got the "I'll give you a rain check", which of course was never honored.
That crap is beyond disappointing, it's very painful.
I quit playing it a few years back. At first she got mad. I told her why and she got silent about it after that.
Game over.
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