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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 22:00:35 GMT -5
We may have loving partners, terrific family and friends, a fulfilled life but in the dark of the night, when you face the void, one has to confront, and make peace with the fact that we are ultimately alone.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 21:52:34 GMT -5
So Christmas is arriving, So quickly - what the heck, My husband, an avoidant, A millstone round my neck. or Here's a piss weak card for you, For Yuletide and for grace, Read it well and go to hell, You fucking waste of space. or There was a time when I could say, My darling I adore ya, The only card you'll get this year Is coming from my lawyer. You are hilarious and andie I love the card!
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 21:47:21 GMT -5
I have journaled extensively for many years and have found it to be very beneficial in my life.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 21:28:36 GMT -5
Friends: Thank you so much for all of your support. I am free from the confines of my sham marriage. FYI I didn't publicly humiliate because to do so would only further embarrass me. I did place it on his pillow to greet him when he came home. I feel a wee bit guilty having contributed to the education of innumerable folks to male masturbatory aids.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 18:03:04 GMT -5
Don't know how to link the music but I'm rocking on to an artist named The Weeknd. HIs latest is called Starboy. When STBX is out of the house I listen to it really loud and dance around. That whole album is pretty amazing.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 10:35:44 GMT -5
Good observation. My STBX knew exactly what he was doing. Public vs personal persona. But the number one thing that freaked me out and devastated me at the same time. Finding a 'Fleshlight' masturbatory toy hidden in the basement. What more is there to say? Maybe he practiced French kissing on it .... have I just freaked you out more Nancy 😳 LMAO...no I'm not freaked out. I don't care anymore what he did with it. His excuse when confronted was just as pathetic. He said that he 'bought it to jazz up our sex life.' WTF?
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 9:52:15 GMT -5
I don't think my bad knee could take the twerking but damn I'd give it a try.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 9:48:27 GMT -5
Don't know how to link the music but I'm rocking on to an artist named The Weeknd. HIs latest is called Starboy. When STBX is out of the house I listen to it really loud and dance around.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 9:21:26 GMT -5
I am working on channeling the anger...art, writing,, swimming. Anything to keep the energy moving.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 8:58:52 GMT -5
There is little other than relatively polite conversation but seething underneath of that is a shit load of anger and hurt.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 8:38:23 GMT -5
Beachguy: My STBX is a selfish prick period.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 8:35:22 GMT -5
My STBX would always act loving and flirtatious when we were out in public. Women especially told me how lucky I was to be married to him. No one except me knew he was an iceman when it came to sexual intimacy with me at home. Oh and I am starting over in my early 50's too JD. Arh, the public face. From my own experience and what others have said there seem to be a trait here, our spouses work so hard to show the world that they loving, intimate and attentive people. That tells me they have some comprehension what they are doing is wrong if they have to hide it? Good observation. My STBX knew exactly what he was doing. Public vs personal persona. But the number one thing that freaked me out and devastated me at the same time. Finding a 'Fleshlight' masturbatory toy hidden in the basement. What more is there to say?
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 8:28:14 GMT -5
And one more thing... My STBX would always pride himself that a 'morning' erection was a sign that everything was working ??
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Post by nancyb on Dec 13, 2016 8:10:13 GMT -5
My STBX would always act loving and flirtatious when we were out in public. Women especially told me how lucky I was to be married to him. No one except me knew he was an iceman when it came to sexual intimacy with me at home.
Oh and I am starting over in my early 50's too JD.
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Post by nancyb on Dec 11, 2016 23:59:14 GMT -5
Looks great smartkat. I put a tree up for the last time at this house. I was tempted to pass this year with the separation/divorce pending.
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