Post by McRoomMate on Apr 9, 2017 6:50:56 GMT -5
So the session was honestly a waste of time for me.
It was mainly focussing on the difference between hypothetical worries v's real worries that you can do something about.
This sounds mean, but it's an accurate reflection of what happened, it was literally a room full of older women, who had so much time on their hands (supported by working husbands) that they filled their own heads with things like "my husband is 5 minutes late. He's either dead or shagging someone"
I wanted to say that it must me nice to have the luxury of enough time on your hands to make up silly scenarios. But I was well outnumbered haha.
So I just shut up and listened in awe.
All I could think about was how much work I could have been doing!
My worries are usually concerned with how the fuck am I going to get through this ridiculously long to-do list today without any assistance!
Next week is good Friday so it's 2 weeks til next session. And a final one the following week.
They are going to focus on techniques to help when the anxious feelings of worry arise... so that actually may be useful.
I have I complete this in order to get through to some proper counselling one on one.
I had a properly shitty week this week after an incident last weekend with the man. I don't want to go into details, but let me just briefly let you all know where I'm at.
I removed my ring a few weeks ago. This has led to him allegedly
Stopping his prescription painkillers, and he "quit"
Weed but has since bought 2 small bags compared to bags every 3 days.
He went out drinking with a friend (he hasn't done this for years) and when I picked him up he wasn't only drunk as a skunk but also coked off his face.
This led to a rather long and unpleasant sex session at his demand. I was not allowed to go to sleep
Until he had done what he wanted to do. And I went along with it honestly for fear of what he would do if i didn't
I don't want to discuss it any further other than to say I know I have to get out.
And to do that I need to get my strength from counselling.
I will keep you all updated.
Love EO x
Take care and courage. Wow - as a former active drunkie and "other substances" - he may have a problem. You will know better than me.
How far are you in an exit plan? Sounds like a decision is made to leave - so then it is ALL in the PREPARATION and PLANNING before Action . . . I just signed a lease a week ago and I am in the middle of moving.
PILLS - I aint no doctor, so I will not give any advice other than for myself - I am very very cautious - one of my best friends is psychiatrist and the "cure" is usually prescription meds. He has offered - I always say no - but that is just me - I have no idea how you are. Just sharing my own personal experience for its three cents worth.