Post by creelunion on Aug 14, 2017 22:11:46 GMT -5
We'll, it started out gentle. And I'm trying. Maybe my wife is just more practical than I am. She assured me that we couldn't stay civil for long. And we're at each other's throats now.
My son texted me at work today asking when I'd be home. He had questions. So I came straight home. He asked why mom and I didn't just do a timeout. Or a separation before just going for divorce. It was a good question. But one I really don't have a good answer to. I told him I need mom to take responsibility and demonstrate accountability. And that wouldn't happen if I'm just living in a tenement or a friend's basement. (Truth is, she'd probably love that as long as I stopped by and cut the grass and fixed stuff.)
He rocked my world.
And my daughter is having meltdowns. Apparently, she was crying violently for a half hour this afternoon.
What am I doing? Why couldn't I just stick to the plan?
My hopes of mutually agreeable solutions and family harmony through this divorce is just stupid. This is violent and there's no other way to consider it.
If someone here has done this with teenagers, I'd love to hear done counsel.
Seeing and talking about the fear my little girl is facing has me feeling like a monster. Seriously.
petrushka, you asked about guilt and shame? This is shame.