Post by Deleted on Dec 10, 2017 20:04:46 GMT -5
Hey, you all everybody. I’m sorry I went MIA for a while there. A couple of you have messaged me to make sure I’m all right.
I’m doing better now. After losing my mom, I had no energy, no motivation; I literally had trouble getting out of bed in the morning. So I went to the doctor, and got some medication.
I’m still sad about my mom, but at least it’s no longer a major effort just to do the minimum things I’m supposed to do.
Mr. Kat has been a rock through this time. I’m not sure exactly what he has in mind for us, to be honest. In my opinion, there isn’t an “us” - there is still no sexual vibe there, and I don’t feel like he treats me like a girlfriend or partner. Maybe we really are evolving into good friends, I don’t know.
In the dark couple of weeks after Mom died, I really felt like there were no more good things left in my future. I even considered trying to get back with Mr. Kat, and just accepting whatever lukewarm behavior he might be willing to give me. (That was before I got my meds.)
At least, I was wise enough even then to suspect that was my grief and depression talking, so I never mentioned it to Mr. Kat. In fact, even at that low point, I knew that I probably shouldn’t make any major decisions for a while.
So, now, I am doing better. I’m going to work, getting stuff done in my apartment, and even going back to some activities. I went to a writers’ workshop, and ironically, met a man who asked me out! Yes, a man asked me out without us having to meet by online dating.
We just had our first date, and I like him. I’m scared to go too fast. Tonight I did explain to him that my mom just died about a month ago, and I’m not in a place to move too fast or make big decisions. That did not seem to bother him, and we got along well on the date. Time will tell, I guess.
I’m doing better now. After losing my mom, I had no energy, no motivation; I literally had trouble getting out of bed in the morning. So I went to the doctor, and got some medication.
I’m still sad about my mom, but at least it’s no longer a major effort just to do the minimum things I’m supposed to do.
Mr. Kat has been a rock through this time. I’m not sure exactly what he has in mind for us, to be honest. In my opinion, there isn’t an “us” - there is still no sexual vibe there, and I don’t feel like he treats me like a girlfriend or partner. Maybe we really are evolving into good friends, I don’t know.
In the dark couple of weeks after Mom died, I really felt like there were no more good things left in my future. I even considered trying to get back with Mr. Kat, and just accepting whatever lukewarm behavior he might be willing to give me. (That was before I got my meds.)
At least, I was wise enough even then to suspect that was my grief and depression talking, so I never mentioned it to Mr. Kat. In fact, even at that low point, I knew that I probably shouldn’t make any major decisions for a while.
So, now, I am doing better. I’m going to work, getting stuff done in my apartment, and even going back to some activities. I went to a writers’ workshop, and ironically, met a man who asked me out! Yes, a man asked me out without us having to meet by online dating.
We just had our first date, and I like him. I’m scared to go too fast. Tonight I did explain to him that my mom just died about a month ago, and I’m not in a place to move too fast or make big decisions. That did not seem to bother him, and we got along well on the date. Time will tell, I guess.
