Post by mypaintbrushes on Aug 15, 2017 1:22:03 GMT -5
You have a spouse who is mentally ill and is incapable of seeing beyond himself. I know, because my wife is the same way. She is very sweet, but she is unable to perceive the world from anything but her own perspective. If there has been a silver lining in my wife's illness, it is that she no longer goes with my son and me when we go out to have fun. With her, we drag her kicking and screaming to have a good time, or she insisted on leaving early. Without her, the two of us enjoy ourselves.
There is a danger in this self-centerness. In earlier posts, I mentioned how twice I needed to go to the hospital, and she refused. The first time, a bug crawled in my ear while I slept. As I was screaming in pain, she asked if I could wait a couple hours until the walk-in clinic opened. I said no, get me to the emergency room now! She relented. The second time, I was having strokelike symptoms. She would not take me, so I called 911 and said "TÍA." That brought the ambulance. Doctors found out that I wasn't having a stroke. I was just majorly stressed out.
On the flip side, I have taken her to the hospital four times in the past year, saving her life each time. When she was havimg delusions after we got married, I got her to a psychiatrist who correctly diagnosed her and got her on the right meds. She has already been through open-heart surgery and breast cancer. Now after two surgeries, her lungs are not working properly. She has been on a ventilator for two months, and the doctors don't know if she will ever come home.
If she dies, I will mourn her. Then I will pick up the pieces and live the life I want to live. I may be 56, but I am still breathing. I want to enjoy what time I have left.
As to the remark in the mirror, you might be a little overweight. So am I. But as much as I like a nice figure, I find self-confidence to be a lot sexier. I've known quite a few women who are overweight but have a self-awareness and confidence that makes them really hot. Pounds come and go. Your spirit is always there.
Thank you.
