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Post by baza on Feb 12, 2017 21:29:33 GMT -5
FWIW Sister @smartkat, I see nothing unusual about your feelings for Mr SmartKat.
There are times when Ms enna and I are discussing things and Mr enna's name (or Mrs baz's name) will come up in conversation along with a wistful observation that those respective relationships didn't work out.
This in no way diminishes or disrespects our (me and Ms enna's) relationship. That's here and now and real and live. There is no 'theory' to it at all.
Hell, truth be told I sometimes go back in time to my first ever adult relationship with the alluring Irene, and think, pity that didn't work out - and that was over 32 years ago !!!!
Cut yourself a bit of slack. If you have given up your heart to someone, there's always going to be a little place in there they still occupy, even years later. I see that as being pretty normal.
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Post by McRoomMate on Feb 13, 2017 8:12:15 GMT -5
OK, this makes me feel better. I've been feeling confused and rather ashamed because I still love Mr. Kat. I even still wish we had been able to turn things around. Life since getting out has not been that great, in terms of my love life. I won't say it's been bad, because it hasn't: I now live in a place I like better and have a better job. I've even done some dating, so I guess that tells me I'm not as undesirable as I thought I was. So really, my life is pretty good. That's why I try not to complain, try not to talk about this very much - but right here and now, I'll say it. I still feel bad that Mr. Kat and I couldn't make things work. I often think I will never again have a love life as good as mine was, when Mr. Kat and I were doing well together. It is quite possible to love somebody but not be "in love" with them anymore. The way I usually phrase things to make the distinction is that I care deeply for my stbx but am no longer in love with her. "The way I usually phrase things to make the distinction is that I care deeply for my stbx but am no longer in love with her." Oh that is perfect. Yes, I deeply CARE I really do. I do not want any of my family to suffer when I throw down the D I feel compassion and empathy oozing from my heart and in fact most of the pain I feel is their pain. But no I cannot lie I am definitely not "in love" or even "attachment" to my current W. Thank-you for the words of wisdom.
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