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Post by Deleted on Feb 6, 2017 23:42:28 GMT -5
I'm out of my SM. Been living on my own for over a year now. I still haven't found love and I'm not sure if I ever will but I have found sex and a type of connection. I can say that I'm addicted to this place too. It's in my nature to want to help people, I'm an ESFJ - the helper. So I feel a need to stay in this group despite not being in a SM anymore. I also think I give good firm advice but in a gentle way, it would never be my intention to make someone feel bad. Sometimes I see my ex, and I get sad about how things turned out. Sometimes I still wish things could have been different but I know he didn't want me. So this place helps to reinforce for me why I left and that I made the right decision for me. This place still helps me too. Love you girl!! You have absolutely helped me and continue to do so!! Me too!! Thanks for giving us all hope bballgirl!! |
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Post by Deleted on Feb 6, 2017 23:46:06 GMT -5
How can you be addicted to sex if you almost never get any? Addicted to this forum, though....yes, it's addictive. I'm still here. The main reason is because I think of most of the people here as friends, and I want to keep up with what's happening to everybody. Also, because - even though I'm out - my love life is still a fucked up mess. I feel I am neither better off nor worse off, for having left - it's a draw. I haven't been here in a few days, and every so often, life off the Internet gets busy for me. My job has gotten busier; people IRL need my attention, etc. But, I always come back. It's interesting that you'd call it a draw, SmartKat. Would you care to elaborate? I'm curious and I'm not fully out yet. I'd hate to think I was leaving for a draw. |
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Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2017 0:53:59 GMT -5
How can you be addicted to sex if you almost never get any? Addicted to this forum, though....yes, it's addictive. I'm still here. The main reason is because I think of most of the people here as friends, and I want to keep up with what's happening to everybody. Also, because - even though I'm out - my love life is still a fucked up mess. I feel I am neither better off nor worse off, for having left - it's a draw. I haven't been here in a few days, and every so often, life off the Internet gets busy for me. My job has gotten busier; people IRL need my attention, etc. But, I always come back. It's interesting that you'd call it a draw, SmartKat. Would you care to elaborate? I'm curious and I'm not fully out yet. I'd hate to think I was leaving for a draw. I call it a draw, because what I want is to be in a good love relationship that includes sex. While I was in my SM deal, I was in a love relationship, but I would not say the last 3 years or so were especially "good" - and it did not include sex. Since getting out, I have dated a few men; but none who have worked out as partners in a good love relationship that includes sex. Either way, my result is the same - I do not have what I really want. |
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