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Nov 7, 2024 9:55:26 GMT -5
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Post by dallasgia on Nov 7, 2024 9:55:26 GMT -5
Nov 9 will mark 6 mos out for me.
Life feels like a time warp - these last 6 months feel both like they were but a day And like they have been a life. I swear the sun rises on my house now.
My financial life is chaos to the point I mostly ignore it and put off critical moves/decisions/actions.
But, the rest of life is so vastly improved.
It is hard for me to describe the relief of not living in the minute by minute grind of being the cause someone else’s misery. Of a husband’s complete rejection. Being alone in your marriage is vastly worse than actually just being alone. I have gone “grey rock” and it is amazing the healing in such a short time.
My heart arrhythmia is almost gone.
My energy level is up.
I ride my bike again.
I spend much more time at home.
I had my first ever physical- so self care is emerging.
My blood pressure is now “optimal”
Weird improvements: my tinnitus has lessoned and my dream life has become more active.
27 yrs married - over ½ my entire life with this person that i am so abundantly relieved to be free from. What does that say?
Besides the financial, my kids are the only point of concern. While all adults, they are having to adjust. The “christian” “homeschool” “pious” “perfection” all the labels that were roughly shoved down their throats their entire lives have just as roughly been striped away - the family flaws on public display. As he puts it “at the hands of their mother”. Now, their once distant and ignoring father has turned on the needy, hovering, intrusive , over bearing behavior pattern. All the negativity that was thrust on me has been thrown over them. All the while loosening the checkbook and “Disneyland dadding” them. It is a terrible paradox to place on kids. I was able to save myself but i will never be able to save my kids from him. The guilt he smothers them with is objectionable.
Those of you in this group were a years long Godsend. I learned so much and gained the courage i lacked through such collective wisdom. I will forever be grateful.
Oh, and there is someone. A someone 7 yrs my senior yet with insatiable sex drive. Lost time being made up in spades.
Keep the faith fellow ILIASMers - it is out there.
DallasGia
Life feels like a time warp - these last 6 months feel both like they were but a day And like they have been a life. I swear the sun rises on my house now.
My financial life is chaos to the point I mostly ignore it and put off critical moves/decisions/actions.
But, the rest of life is so vastly improved.
It is hard for me to describe the relief of not living in the minute by minute grind of being the cause someone else’s misery. Of a husband’s complete rejection. Being alone in your marriage is vastly worse than actually just being alone. I have gone “grey rock” and it is amazing the healing in such a short time.
My heart arrhythmia is almost gone.
My energy level is up.
I ride my bike again.
I spend much more time at home.
I had my first ever physical- so self care is emerging.
My blood pressure is now “optimal”
Weird improvements: my tinnitus has lessoned and my dream life has become more active.
27 yrs married - over ½ my entire life with this person that i am so abundantly relieved to be free from. What does that say?
Besides the financial, my kids are the only point of concern. While all adults, they are having to adjust. The “christian” “homeschool” “pious” “perfection” all the labels that were roughly shoved down their throats their entire lives have just as roughly been striped away - the family flaws on public display. As he puts it “at the hands of their mother”. Now, their once distant and ignoring father has turned on the needy, hovering, intrusive , over bearing behavior pattern. All the negativity that was thrust on me has been thrown over them. All the while loosening the checkbook and “Disneyland dadding” them. It is a terrible paradox to place on kids. I was able to save myself but i will never be able to save my kids from him. The guilt he smothers them with is objectionable.
Those of you in this group were a years long Godsend. I learned so much and gained the courage i lacked through such collective wisdom. I will forever be grateful.
Oh, and there is someone. A someone 7 yrs my senior yet with insatiable sex drive. Lost time being made up in spades.
Keep the faith fellow ILIASMers - it is out there.
DallasGia
