Post by snowman12345 on Dec 9, 2020 21:48:52 GMT -5
Today my wife learned that her brother is seriously ill. Following surgery today he was sent to ICU and seemed pretty bad. Not COVID related, but due to hospital rules she was not able to go see him. She is very upset and rightly so. She actually reached out and tried to touch me, wanted some reassurance that I would comfort her. I feel a bit guilty for pulling away and backing out of her embrace.
It was the first time she has reached out for me physically in 8 or 9 years. I was surprised by it, but also by my reaction to her touch.
I feel bad for her (and worse for her brother). I just don't seem to have it in me to care about her needs anymore.
We live in the same house. Sleep in the same bed. Eat the same meals and love the same people.
But we just seem to pass each other by with a wave and a nod and go about our days.
Life is full of fucked up surprises.
It was the first time she has reached out for me physically in 8 or 9 years. I was surprised by it, but also by my reaction to her touch.
I feel bad for her (and worse for her brother). I just don't seem to have it in me to care about her needs anymore.
We live in the same house. Sleep in the same bed. Eat the same meals and love the same people.
But we just seem to pass each other by with a wave and a nod and go about our days.
Life is full of fucked up surprises.
