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Post by smith227 on Apr 29, 2019 19:27:11 GMT -5
I’m feeling okay today. Thank God. Bc I’ve been feeling pretty crappy the last week. After coming home from work today I realized, I love my new apartment. It’s nothing anyone would look at and think it’s special, but it’s incredibly special to me and I’m blessed to have it. I’m trying to take inventory of what I’m thankful for, and it’s helping. I thought I would be homeless if I left 3 months ago...I’m blessed with a home. I thought I wouldn’t be able to afford living on my own...I got a promotion and a substantial raise. I thought I’d feel like everything is totally my fault in my failed marriage...today I don’t feel that way. Most of all I don’t feel lonely right now. I may not have family and friends here, but I work with a great group of people and for that I’m thankful. I’m also thankful for this board. Just wanted to write a little while feeling hopeful instead of mad/desperate/crazy. The other side looks bright today.
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Post by baza on Apr 29, 2019 21:10:37 GMT -5
That's good Sister smith227 . Keep in mind that this part of the process can see you oscillating between feeling good and at times feeling rotten. The feeling rotten bits usually becoming less often and less intense. The feeling good bits usually becoming more often and more intense. The stories of Sister @elle might be worth you reading in this regard. You're going well Sister smith227 . |
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Post by Handy on Apr 29, 2019 21:26:26 GMT -5
Smith227, I am happy to hear things are going well for you today. I hope you have more and better days in the future, with a minimum of crappy days.
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Post by sadkat on Apr 30, 2019 7:31:56 GMT -5
smith227- I’m glad you’re starting to experience some good days! Those moments of regret and doubt are not fun or easy to live through. But- you’re getting stronger and you will have far more frequent good moments as you become used to your new normal. I’m happy for you!
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Post by isthisit on Apr 30, 2019 12:00:18 GMT -5
smith227 I am also recently out of my SM deal and bounce between terrible, okay-ish and not so bad days too. As time goes on I do still have terrible days sure, but less of them now and probably not quite as crappy as often. It is taking a lot of work and purposeful distraction, often doing stuff I don’t really feel like doing in the moment but am grateful to have undertaken after the event. The advice to be found here really does work, but it’s hard so please be kind to yourself where you can.
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