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Post by northstarmom on Oct 21, 2018 11:03:24 GMT -5
This weekend i worked as a paid actress in a local Halloween haunted trail. Asked to dress as a burlesque dancer and tasked with greeting people as they entered an area containing scary creatures, I wore fishnet stockings with a garter belt, a sleeveless leotard, and sparkly silver chains encircling my boobs and a belt with long sparkly fringes that extended 8 inches below my crotch. I waved a cigarette in a long holder covered with rhinestones. I had a great time setting people up for scares.
I am 67 and 5 years out of my sm. I feel younger, happier, and sexier now than I did 20 years ago when I was still focused on trying to find the key to changing my refuser. Then I felt so ugly that I didn’t wear makeup or attractive clothes. I wore men’s glasses because I hadn’t the patience to find glasses that looked good on me. Every day I wished I was dead. I felt dead inside.
It was when I finally started focusing on discovering and exploring my desires and things I could do to create the life that I wanted that I dared to take acting classes and to get involved in things independent of my husband. I decided I’d rather look foolish than go to my grave without at least trying to do the things I wanted to do.
I ended up unveiling a fun persona that I have been delighted to discover is me. And I get paid for doing things like this! And I was able to shed without angst my refuser and I ended up with a guy who loves this sexy, fun me.
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Post by Handy on Oct 21, 2018 12:38:09 GMT -5
NorthStarMom, great story!! I hope it inspires other people to move to the next stage of their life.
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Post by baza on Oct 21, 2018 19:27:47 GMT -5
This coming Thursday marks me as being out of my ILIASM deal for 9 years. I won't bore you with the stuff I find fulfilling these days that was absent back in my ILIASM days, but rather, I'll endorse what Sister northstarmom has outlined. I got out....the case to do so stood up all by itself. It made way more sense to be single rather than in an ILIASM deal. As it turned out, life chucked another person into the mix, and that lead to another stand alone issue to sort out....was there a case to be made to getting into another relationship....and did the case for that stand up all by itself ? As it turned out, the case to give that a whirl did stand up all by itself. It made sense that having a crack at a joint deal with Ms enna had more potential upsides than staying single. Like Sister northstarmom , getting out of my ILIASM deal was a good choice. It was a life enhancing move, and I could easily be writing this from the perspective of being a happy single bloke. But as it turned out, that wasn't the end of the story....and I now write this from a perspective of a bloke very happy in a relationship of 8 years standing. The best relationship of my life. None of which would have happened had I remained in my ILIASM deal. |
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Post by TheGreatContender -aka Daddeeo on Oct 22, 2018 10:32:38 GMT -5
Pics or it didnt happen, 🤪
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Post by workingonit on Oct 22, 2018 13:26:56 GMT -5
northstarmom I don't always agree with you or appreciate your tone on this forum but I admire the hell out of you. Your focus on remaking yourself and encouraging that for all of us is the truest of truths. I believe that so many of us arrive here feeling like things are great bar the sex but really we have been beaten down and have lost our ability to thrive. You are a source of inspiration. Thank you ❤
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Post by Deleted on Oct 22, 2018 13:51:55 GMT -5
northstarmom I don't always agree with you or appreciate your tone on this forum but I admire the hell out of you. Your focus on remaking yourself and encouraging that for all of us is the truest of truths. I believe that so many of us arrive here feeling like things are great bar the sex but really we have been beaten down and have lost our ability to thrive. You are a source of inspiration. Thank you ❤ What she said. Like, exactly what she said. |
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Post by solodriver on Oct 23, 2018 1:46:26 GMT -5
This weekend i worked as a paid actress in a local Halloween haunted trail. Asked to dress as a burlesque dancer and tasked with greeting people as they entered an area containing scary creatures, I wore fishnet stockings with a garter belt, a sleeveless leotard, and sparkly silver chains encircling my boobs and a belt with long sparkly fringes that extended 8 inches below my crotch. I waved a cigarette in a long holder covered with rhinestones. I had a great time setting people up for scares. I am 67 and 5 years out of my sm. I feel younger, happier, and sexier now than I did 20 years ago when I was still focused on trying to find the key to changing my refuser. Then I felt so ugly that I didn’t wear makeup or attractive clothes. I wore men’s glasses because I hadn’t the patience to find glasses that looked good on me. Every day I wished I was dead. I felt dead inside. It was when I finally started focusing on discovering and exploring my desires and things I could do to create the life that I wanted that I dared to take acting classes and to get involved in things independent of my husband. I decided I’d rather look foolish than go to my grave without at least trying to do the things I wanted to do. I ended up unveiling a fun persona that I have been delighted to discover is me. And I get paid for doing things like this! And I was able to shed without angst my refuser and I ended up with a guy who loves this sexy, fun me. So you're saying at 59 I still have hope.  |
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Post by shamwow on Oct 23, 2018 6:48:43 GMT -5
This weekend i worked as a paid actress in a local Halloween haunted trail. Asked to dress as a burlesque dancer and tasked with greeting people as they entered an area containing scary creatures, I wore fishnet stockings with a garter belt, a sleeveless leotard, and sparkly silver chains encircling my boobs and a belt with long sparkly fringes that extended 8 inches below my crotch. I waved a cigarette in a long holder covered with rhinestones. I had a great time setting people up for scares. I am 67 and 5 years out of my sm. I feel younger, happier, and sexier now than I did 20 years ago when I was still focused on trying to find the key to changing my refuser. Then I felt so ugly that I didn’t wear makeup or attractive clothes. I wore men’s glasses because I hadn’t the patience to find glasses that looked good on me. Every day I wished I was dead. I felt dead inside. It was when I finally started focusing on discovering and exploring my desires and things I could do to create the life that I wanted that I dared to take acting classes and to get involved in things independent of my husband. I decided I’d rather look foolish than go to my grave without at least trying to do the things I wanted to do. I ended up unveiling a fun persona that I have been delighted to discover is me. And I get paid for doing things like this! And I was able to shed without angst my refuser and I ended up with a guy who loves this sexy, fun me. So you're saying at 59 I still have hope. I would think that depends upon how well you look in fish net stockings and chains. northstarmom can apparently pull it off but that may not hold true for everyone. Personally? I give myself a 37 percent chance of pulling it off. |
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Post by saarinista on Oct 23, 2018 13:16:54 GMT -5
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Post by hopingforachange on Oct 23, 2018 15:01:59 GMT -5
So you're saying at 59 I still have hope. I would think that depends upon how well you look in fish net stockings and chains. northstarmom can apparently pull it off but that may not hold true for everyone. Personally? I give myself a 37 percent chance of pulling it off. The rough sack guy puts you at 95% |
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Post by shamwow on Oct 23, 2018 15:30:39 GMT -5
I would think that depends upon how well you look in fish net stockings and chains. northstarmom can apparently pull it off but that may not hold true for everyone. Personally? I give myself a 37 percent chance of pulling it off. The rough sack guy puts you at 95% OK. I have issues with your statement. First it's a ruck sack. Second those were straps, not chains. Third I don't know what fish net stockings look like on sasquatch but it has the potential to ruin rather than complete the look. |
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Post by bballgirl on Oct 23, 2018 18:16:58 GMT -5
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Post by choosinghappy on Oct 23, 2018 21:59:37 GMT -5
I would think that depends upon how well you look in fish net stockings and chains. northstarmom can apparently pull it off but that may not hold true for everyone. Personally? I give myself a 37 percent chance of pulling it off. The rough sack guy puts you at 95% Hahaha rucksack guy was my first thought too 😆 |
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Post by sadkat on Oct 23, 2018 22:27:15 GMT -5
northstarmom I don't always agree with you or appreciate your tone on this forum but I admire the hell out of you. Your focus on remaking yourself and encouraging that for all of us is the truest of truths. I believe that so many of us arrive here feeling like things are great bar the sex but really we have been beaten down and have lost our ability to thrive. You are a source of inspiration. Thank you ❤ What she said. Like, exactly what she said. Ditto from me! You are the bomb northstarmom! |
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Post by shamwow on Oct 23, 2018 22:46:13 GMT -5
The rough sack guy puts you at 95% Hahaha rucksack guy was my first thought too 😆 None of you people have any feelings for the victim. 😪 |
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