Post by Caris on Nov 4, 2017 15:27:11 GMT -5
I woke from a nap this afternoon, and the room was spinning. I closed my eyes, and opened again, and it was still spinning. It’s the second time I’ve experienced vertigo, and it’s very unnerving and disorienting. The last time I had it was 5-years ago. I half sat up with my eyes closed, then opened, and spinning had stopped, but I felt unbalanced and warm like I had a fever, or was getting sick.
I’m on medication that makes me high risk for brain bleeding, or any bleeding, so looked that up on google. It said dizziness on this medication needs immediate medical attention. I was already feeling , anxious, and unwell, so this made me feel scared that I was going to die alone. It’s a horrible feeling.
I wrote down phone numbers, who needs to be paid, and a blank check for my son. If I don’t die today (or this weekend), I need to gather all that information in a more orderly fashion.
I’m off to buy a thermometer, get my BP checked, and unless I develop more symptoms, I’m not going to the ER. It’s a scare though, especially as my husband died suddenly at a relatively young age. I don’t know why he died because his family won’t tell me. It leaves me without a certain closure, and I wonder could it happen to me. Well, it can happen to anyone, so there is that.
If I had a loving partner, or a close friend I could call for reassurance, it would make a world of difference, but I don’t. My son is not picking up his phone, and he’s at work, so I’m alone with it, and even though the anxiety is dissipating now (probably because I’m sharing this with the group), the loneliness is intensified because I know if something bad happens to me, there is no one except my eldest son. In fact, if I died, he’d be the only one at my funeral. That’s what my life has come to. You never think, when young, that if you die older, there would virtually be no one at your funeral.
So now I’ve got this off my chest, I stand tall, shoulders back, and go on, brace myself, and hope for the best.
Thanks for listening.
I’m on medication that makes me high risk for brain bleeding, or any bleeding, so looked that up on google. It said dizziness on this medication needs immediate medical attention. I was already feeling , anxious, and unwell, so this made me feel scared that I was going to die alone. It’s a horrible feeling.
I wrote down phone numbers, who needs to be paid, and a blank check for my son. If I don’t die today (or this weekend), I need to gather all that information in a more orderly fashion.
I’m off to buy a thermometer, get my BP checked, and unless I develop more symptoms, I’m not going to the ER. It’s a scare though, especially as my husband died suddenly at a relatively young age. I don’t know why he died because his family won’t tell me. It leaves me without a certain closure, and I wonder could it happen to me. Well, it can happen to anyone, so there is that.
If I had a loving partner, or a close friend I could call for reassurance, it would make a world of difference, but I don’t. My son is not picking up his phone, and he’s at work, so I’m alone with it, and even though the anxiety is dissipating now (probably because I’m sharing this with the group), the loneliness is intensified because I know if something bad happens to me, there is no one except my eldest son. In fact, if I died, he’d be the only one at my funeral. That’s what my life has come to. You never think, when young, that if you die older, there would virtually be no one at your funeral.
So now I’ve got this off my chest, I stand tall, shoulders back, and go on, brace myself, and hope for the best.
Thanks for listening.
