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Post by thistooshallpass on May 17, 2017 19:22:49 GMT -5
These days, I find myself
Seeking validation.--
Wherever I might be.
I find myself
Looking at female faces,
While walking down the street;
Or pushing a cart
Down a supermarket isle,
Or at a local eatery.--
All the while
Hoping that a woman might
Give herself away
With a subtle glance,
Or a fleeting smile.--
Just by chance.
Something that might say,
"You are still desirable."
These days, I find myself
Searching for something.--
Wherever I may be.
I find myself
Looking at female faces,
In random places.--
Like bus stops; or street shops,
Or in my car,
Waiting for a traffic light to change
From red to green.--
All the while
Hoping that some woman might
Look my way
With an approving glance;
Or an inviting smile.--
Not by chance.
Something that might say,
"You are still desired."
TTSP
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Post by solodriver on May 17, 2017 19:44:16 GMT -5
I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one that does that. I do that as well and just this morning found myself looking over at a woman in the car sitting to me at the stop light, but she didn't look back at me so I didn't get a chance to smile or get one in return. But as I go about my day, I do look and smile at woman passing by me or if I'm in a line and a woman is in front and turns around, I will just smile at her and sometimes she smiles back and sometimes not. I also enjoy any hugs I get and even handshakes with a woman are enjoyed even though it doesn't even begin to become close to touching the deep pain I feel from the rejection of my refuser. SM sucks (and not in a good way) 
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Post by thistooshallpass on May 17, 2017 21:20:46 GMT -5
I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one that does that. I do that as well and just this morning found myself looking over at a woman in the car sitting to me at the stop light, but she didn't look back at me so I didn't get a chance to smile or get one in return. But as I go about my day, I do look and smile at woman passing by me or if I'm in a line and a woman is in front and turns around, I will just smile at her and sometimes she smiles back and sometimes not. I also enjoy any hugs I get and even handshakes with a woman are enjoyed even though it doesn't even begin to become close to touching the deep pain I feel from the rejection of my refuser. SM sucks (and not in a good way)
C'mon solodriver, admit it. We're just a pair of creepy momentary stalkers that are desperate for any kind of validation that we can get out there ;-) Don't you hate it when you smile at a woman and she doesn't smile back? Ouch! But can you really blame them when they don't? Don't know what women are like where you live; but around here, you'd think they mistakenly recognized you from a wanted poster by their reaction to a stranger smiling at them. Maybe it's just a case of me needing to work a bit more on my smile.  <---- How's that one? Hoping your smile is better than mine. Sure feels good though when you're surprised with a return smile, eh? And please, don't get me started with handshakes and hugs. You're going to compel me to write a poem about that and I really need to get some shut-eye. Too late, dammit. Now those lines of verse are going to be rolling around in my head all night until they spill out onto my pillow. Thanks for the response, my creepy peep. I genuinely feel your pain. PS. The things that an SM can drive us to do. (shaking head) <--- NO sexual innuendo intended. |
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<---- How's that one? Hoping your smile is better than mine. 
