I don't know where to post this...
Apr 19, 2016 18:32:24 GMT -5
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Post by TMD on Apr 19, 2016 18:32:24 GMT -5
But "other" also applies to the "other" woman having an affair with the "other" man.. So "Other Relationship Issues" sounded close.
Except I'm not really here to moan about the "other" man (aka AP). So much as to say that today has been shit and I want to crawl into my cave and sleep it all away.
Not even sure where to start.
Let's just say that I got some strange news from a really close family member today. One that may or may not put this family member's health at risk. And family member is off on a holiday, so I will wait for his/her return to learn more about what is going on. But it may be related to a transplant they had, and it may involve the living donor, which may or may not be me. I'm not worried about the living donor's health, so much as I am the transplant recipient's. Sigh. I can't even make sense of how I'm feeling. Other than sad and pissed and frustrated.
And then the "other" man and I had the weirdest conversation today that may or may not have involved a potential getaway he had asked for. I made the time. And so began the excuses. And I just wasn't able to be patient (but I did the best I could, according to positive behaviours I have been learning about from The Gottman Institute on relationships -- insert sort of chuckle here). But still. Sigh. It felt like suddenly he couldn't go through with it and wasn't admitting it. I left the ball in his court, and magically flights were booked.
That said, I haven't heard from him since. Which is a sign that he's not happy either. See? Affairs are stupid because you don't have the same opportunities to have face-to-face, candid conversations.
And speaking of which, the only adults I spoke to where the ones at the movie theatre. And they are barely adult. And they don't even care. Jerks.
After all that, I decided to take in a movie all by myself this afternoon. A comedy. It was okay, but I slept through half of it. And then woke to crave chocolate. Of which, none was handy. Boo.
And now I'm home. My laptop is toast. And until today, my computer couldn't access the internet (even though my service provider tested it and confirmed it was receiving internet, and obviously the wifi was working). So the good news is I some how fixed it by hooking up a device driver, and now have internet and can type on my QWERTY keyboard with more than 2 fingers (as opposed to using phone/tablet). And that means I can more seriously look, and apply, for work. I REALLY need a job in order to extricate myself from a marriage I left emotionally years ago.
But what I need to do is decide where I want my EP stories? Should I delete my account? Should I transfer the stories somewhere else? Anybody have any advice? What are you all doing?
And why haven't Baz and Sleeplessknight come over? I having mixed feelings about that. And not all that generous at the moment. Obviously, I have separation anxiety and didn't even know it until today.
Gee. I think I just needed to get that out in the open. ((sheepish grin here))
Except I'm not really here to moan about the "other" man (aka AP). So much as to say that today has been shit and I want to crawl into my cave and sleep it all away.
Not even sure where to start.
Let's just say that I got some strange news from a really close family member today. One that may or may not put this family member's health at risk. And family member is off on a holiday, so I will wait for his/her return to learn more about what is going on. But it may be related to a transplant they had, and it may involve the living donor, which may or may not be me. I'm not worried about the living donor's health, so much as I am the transplant recipient's. Sigh. I can't even make sense of how I'm feeling. Other than sad and pissed and frustrated.
And then the "other" man and I had the weirdest conversation today that may or may not have involved a potential getaway he had asked for. I made the time. And so began the excuses. And I just wasn't able to be patient (but I did the best I could, according to positive behaviours I have been learning about from The Gottman Institute on relationships -- insert sort of chuckle here). But still. Sigh. It felt like suddenly he couldn't go through with it and wasn't admitting it. I left the ball in his court, and magically flights were booked.
That said, I haven't heard from him since. Which is a sign that he's not happy either. See? Affairs are stupid because you don't have the same opportunities to have face-to-face, candid conversations.
And speaking of which, the only adults I spoke to where the ones at the movie theatre. And they are barely adult. And they don't even care. Jerks.
After all that, I decided to take in a movie all by myself this afternoon. A comedy. It was okay, but I slept through half of it. And then woke to crave chocolate. Of which, none was handy. Boo.
And now I'm home. My laptop is toast. And until today, my computer couldn't access the internet (even though my service provider tested it and confirmed it was receiving internet, and obviously the wifi was working). So the good news is I some how fixed it by hooking up a device driver, and now have internet and can type on my QWERTY keyboard with more than 2 fingers (as opposed to using phone/tablet). And that means I can more seriously look, and apply, for work. I REALLY need a job in order to extricate myself from a marriage I left emotionally years ago.
But what I need to do is decide where I want my EP stories? Should I delete my account? Should I transfer the stories somewhere else? Anybody have any advice? What are you all doing?
And why haven't Baz and Sleeplessknight come over? I having mixed feelings about that. And not all that generous at the moment. Obviously, I have separation anxiety and didn't even know it until today.
Gee. I think I just needed to get that out in the open. ((sheepish grin here))
