The science of love.

For me love has always been a spectator sport. I read about it, see depictions of it in movies and tv but despite dating for 15 years before I married, I never experienced it myself. I wanted to, who wouldn't ? But I was never lucky enough to meet the "right" woman. By the time I was in my late 30's I figured it just wasn't in the cards for me and I ended up marrying for other reasons- to be part of a family, have kids etc. I do envy those who have this experience. Although when I see the hurt caused by relationship break ups and divorce it does give me a certain amount of consolation. I don't know if I could handle that kind of pain and rejection of me as a person.