Sometmes it's not so simple....

I drove someone important in my life away from me.  (Strangely, it is not the Frigidaire. I believe that I knew in my heart that was over.)
I am not sure it is repairable however much I try.

It is my fault and I own it.

At the prompting of a friend, I was asked to examine "Why do you do it? What do 'get' out of that behavior?"

I believe I MAY have found the answer.

I'm an idiot. I do a lot of stupid things in my life.  I'm thick as well. (it makes for a fun time - but is difficult in relationships)
I need to be forgiven, yet still loved.

So sometimes I 'push'.

I sometimes need to be told plainly, "This is my boundary" - and if I cross it be told (again plainly) "You are crossing that boundary again"  and yet still loved.

Eventually I "get it" - but it can be tiring.

I need to know that they see me as "worth the effort" - because, honestly, I sometimes think that I'm not myself.

I don't give my heart easily, but when I do it's completely.
I need the same.

And that isn't so simple.