Post by Dan on Aug 17, 2016 21:40:28 GMT -5
As I was in Starbucks waiting, I suddenly felt so lonely. I can't explain it. I experienced this overwhelming feeling of being detached....from my husband and even my kids. I felt all alone, stuck in my head with my thoughts. It's as if my heart has a hole in it, and I am sad.
Maybe I am grieving? I felt a little like this when my father passed away. I think eternaloptimism , you said it in one of your posts, everything seems so surreal.
My therapist would say to sit with this feeling and try and see what part of me it's coming from. I need to do this as well as meditate and journal this evening.
It might be grieving... or depression... or exhaustion... or just low blood sugar that afternoon! I'm not trying to be dismissive; I'm trying to say "it is hard to pin down what one particular bout of loneliness is caused by".
Have you had a chance to -- as you say -- "see what part this is coming from"? Have you concluded anything you can share?
If this feeling is strong, frequently recurring, and interferes with normal, daily tasks (work, child care, self care)... then it probably needs to be discussed more with your therapist, who would help you decide if it is time to also consult a psychiatrist about depression meds.
If this was -- on the other hand -- just a "sudden pang of intense loneliness"... then it is harder to pin down. I seem to be experiencing something like that occasionally. Maybe once every two to four weeks, I'm so "off" that I'm deeply sad; kinda worried about EVERYTHING; don't want to even go in to the office for fear of starting to bawl at work; I recall every regret I ever had and I keep playing it back in my head. Yes, I feel lonely during those times... but for me I describe it as a "confidence crash". I utterly lose ALL confidence in EVERYTHING: that I'm any good at anything, that I'm worthy of spousal love, that I can even make it through the day. Fortunately in my case, I have usually found that this intense feeling usually passes in a few hours. Am I "depressed"? I dunno: the other 98% of the time I feel "normal", I go about my daily stuff, not too hard on myself, not too gloomy, knowing that I'm doing the best that I can. If I was clinically depressed, wouldn't I feel "bad" and "down" the majority of the time? So -- to date -- I haven't yet spoken to a doctor about depression meds. But that is just my take on it for me.
Here's my Rx for you: get someone to watch the kids, and go hang out with a friend. Talk about your troubles a bit... but about fun stuff, too. Try to think of a few things that light up your day... and share them with someone. Maybe over lunch?
