Post by northstarmom on Sept 1, 2018 8:03:03 GMT -5
Out 5 years. With the love of my life. Happier than when in my sm.. I got out when I realized I’d be lonelier remaining in a sm than divorcing and being permanently single. Finding love again was a surprise.
Post by GeekGoddess on Sept 5, 2018 20:25:34 GMT -5
Much better place. Out of the married house 24 months. Out, on paper, 18 months. Changed jobs, went back to college. WAY better work/life balance. Working on lack of romance/sex - which is work I was completely unable to do inside the SM. Way better place, for me.
I can’t give a definitive answer. It’s too complex to say one way or the other. It’s better in that I no longer have to deal with strife and hostility on a daily basis, and rejection, but much of what was good (my home, finances, pets, great health care, and my ex being alive, etc has been lost. It’s been one hell of a struggle to get to where I am now in my healing, and I’m glad that after 3-years, I’m doing better mentally and emotionally, but I’m changed by the whole experience, and life for me is very different than I could have ever imagined. I was terrified of growing old alone. To me that was like death, but here I am doing just that, and I’ve adjusted to the reality. Took years to accept (and doesn’t mean I like it), but it’s not the terror that it once was. Acceptance can be a very long process, but here I am.
This week marks 2 years since I moved out. I am rediscovering who I am and what I want. Almost immediately, after I left, I stopped gritting my teeth and began sleeping through the night again. The 5 years previous are a little bit of a blur at this point because I was putting so much energy into the facade that was my marriage. I will always love him because he is the father of my children but I am 10 times happier than I was back then! I am ME again. I love to sing and dance and laugh. And dammit, I am sexy. Haha. It has been fun embracing that side again too.
Post by thebaffledking on Sept 8, 2018 3:57:51 GMT -5
I read somewhere, baza, that, in general, women are the divorce initiators over 70% of the time. I believe it is extraordinarily hard for a man to 'leave'......that's not what men do. They hang on until grim death visits them. I had my on vision of grim death and with my 3 kids all over 21 years old, I finally jumped out of the airplane........it was SO hard; totally against my middle-class midwest upbringing to be the initiator. Suspect I am not alone in feeling this way, even if it's subconscious.......it's a reasoning that we men need to look at very carefully. Who 'put that on us'? In other words, don't beat the living shit out of yourself just because society says 'men don't leave'. Better gone than dead, I always say (-:
misssunnybunny: You're welcome! So glad to hear you had a great day
Jan 19, 2019 16:34:01 GMT -5
worksforme2: anyone hear anything lately from mrslowmaintenance or smartkat?
Jan 24, 2019 18:06:02 GMT -5
petrushka: Just saw the forecast for Mildura at 47C -- I hope you and Ms. Enna are going to be ok Baz. That's getting dangerous.
Jan 24, 2019 20:10:00 GMT -5
lifeinwoodinville: I last heard from mrslowmaintenance about a month ago. I have been in regular contact with her for the last year and a half. I feel comfortable in saying that her situation remains unchanged. If you want to know more PM me.
Jan 25, 2019 22:36:50 GMT -5
worksforme2: Hey baza,...I know it's hot and dry down under. N.C. is having record rainfall. I would gladly trade some rain for some sunshine....
Feb 22, 2019 20:28:35 GMT -5
tamara68: Today it's steak and blowjob day! I suppose the steak is for those who don't get a blowjob.
Mar 14, 2019 16:49:49 GMT -5
petrushka: tamara68 Laughing with tears in my eyes. And my steak is going to be semolina gruel, due to some tummy upset :-\
Mar 15, 2019 1:11:10 GMT -5
misssunnybunny: So sad to hear the news from New Zealand. Boston Strong supports Kiwi Strong!!
Mar 15, 2019 7:46:22 GMT -5
petrushka: I was gobsmacked when I heard. This is just not us. In all of 2017 we had 37 murders in the country ..... I think the echo chambers of "social media" have a lot to answer for.
Mar 15, 2019 18:45:45 GMT -5
baza: Feeling for our Brothers and Sisters across the ditch Brother petrushka .
Mar 15, 2019 19:27:50 GMT -5
misssunnybunny: petrushka, I thought I read the headline wrong (this stuff happens here, not in NZ). It is frightening the hate that is being spread; it makes my heart hurt.
Mar 15, 2019 20:46:54 GMT -5
saarinista: All of us, IMHO, should try to be civil and kind as much as possible in person and online. I actively Tweet (civilly) on political matters and am horrified by the rancor & trolling on both sides of the spectrum, which only inflames unstable people.
Mar 19, 2019 23:21:20 GMT -5
saarinista: is anyone else watching March Madness?
Mar 24, 2019 11:44:48 GMT -5