New here Jul 5, 2020 22:30:10 GMT -5 via mobile
Post by padgemi on Jul 5, 2020 22:30:10 GMT -5
Absolutely no oral to be because she finds it repulsive.
The very rare times I get to do oral on her I immediately have to brush my teeth and use mouthwash before we continue.
Hardly any touching me down there.
Same process each time: kissing her, play with her boobs, rub her down there.
She has to use lube each time which is a letdown for me as I know I don't do it for her.
Not when we have company in the house
Only missionary position.
No sexy clothing
Usually in the dark
Once we start it's hurry up for me to finish.
Immediately when we are done it's hurry up and clean up in the bathroom.
I stopped initiating late last year as I got tired of constantly getting rejected. As a result our frequency has dropped even further to maybe once a month now, and it's only when she initiates when she feels guilty. Outside of sex I rarely get to see her naked as she covers up quickly. Because of this I avoid trying to see her naked.
I have looked for ways to totally nuke my libido as I'm tired of taking care of it on my own. I've tried antidepressants which sucked because it only prevented orgasms, but my drive was still there. Honestly I wish my drive would just go away entirely. Sex is not worth it anymore to me.
One thing that really helped me: filing for divorce.
But before that, when I stopped pursuing and I knew damn well she would never initiate, that also really helped.
I’m sorry you are still getting hit up with unwanted guilt-induced sexual starfishing advances from her. Just remember: no means no. Consent works both ways.