Post by richfairy72 on Feb 14, 2017 19:21:53 GMT -5
Ok, so hope everyone on here survives Valentine's day (nearly over in the UK....)
So, after my 'separation' talk at the weekend, he decided to go for the Valentine's day reset sex. Ok, I am grateful for him making the effort, but he still didn't seem that bothered, just going through the motions. Now I feel worse, as I feel used, a bit stupid and like I can't whinge now he has done the deed.
Aurgh. Why is it so complicated. Maybe I just have to accept crap sex. Now I feel a bitch.
You are worth so much more than this!!
He should be the one who is grateful that you are still with him!! He made the effort because you had the talk. That's it. You are vulnerable and lonely and went along with it. Try not to beat yourself up about it. It's okay.
AND...you are NOT a bitch!!!
SM fucking with your head.
Believe this: You are beautiful, caring, brave, loving, desirable. You deserve to be happy in all areas of your life. Begin to love and forgive yourself. Take one step at a time.
I felt as if I would be stuck in this SM life forever. It took a long, long, long time for me to realize that I am worth more than this. How did I allow him to "own" my sexuality? How did I allow him to lead me down a life of celibacy when he knew it was clearly not what I wanted? It's because I was afraid, had low self-esteem, and felt no one would want me if my husband didn't. Now I am more afraid of continuing to live this life than getting out of it. Happiness is out there..step by step we can all reach it. It takes courage, strength and support. Please don't settle and don't ever give up on your happiness. ((hugs))
xo
G
Thanks for the hugs...