I don't burst into tears but I do go into a period of sadness and depression because I'm not experiencing this sexual release with my wife, or honestly with any woman that desires me since she does not. It's a quick release of tension but then the mental side starts to take over of shame. I feel guilty in a way for needing to go that route to fulfill my needs.
No celebrities in my dreams. I did have several recurring dreams involving women I knew from highschool. Those were very nice, but I almost always ended up dying by the end of the dreams. Still worth it though.
Never burst into tears after handling my business though. General sadness/loneliness is common after though. It takes care of the physical urge but not the emotional emptiness.
Bits of me are dying but others are growing. One step at a time.
I did get so low that I cried during masturbation. I really wanted intimacy. I changed that.
For the most part, I am not touched unless I reach out. That was hard to deal with until I noticed not a soul in his family will hug.
ETA: One time I had the tiny contractions you have after an orgasm for no reason, just laying there, just a couple of pulses but it let me know I was alive!!!!
I do dream about past boyfriends in school. They make no sense but at least I got to have sex. Now I kick myself for waiting to have sex so many months. All that got me was someone who doesn't want it to begin with. When getting a FWB I used a mentor to tell me when to go have sex. It took all the pressure away.
No dream about sex but I did dream of getting a private tour in a large home/estate with some very nice wood paneling and fancy wood trim like you see in movies where someone is murdered or where the book cases have secret doors behind them or a secret door behind another wood panel.
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jim44444: Happy Vernal Equinox. Go out and frolic.
Mar 20, 2021 19:16:35 GMT -5
worksforme2: Happy Vernal Equinox....Be fruitful and multiply...
Mar 21, 2021 5:18:36 GMT -5
petrushka: Just attended a lecture on local history. Apparently the Presbyterian Scottish refugees who settled here called a 'frolic', what the Amish would call a 'barn raising'. First a working bee, then dancing and feasting.
Mar 25, 2021 22:43:53 GMT -5
jerri: Pressing the like sign for all those comments.
Mar 26, 2021 15:04:52 GMT -5
worksforme2: Lucked onto a great new source for breaking news----The Babylon Bee
Mar 28, 2021 12:47:45 GMT -5
catlover: The resentment is running high today
Mar 28, 2021 18:39:08 GMT -5
mirrororchid: Sorry, dude. I think resentment has been the fuel for action in some SMs. It can be part of a process, eventually helpful.
Mar 30, 2021 4:43:40 GMT -5
Handy: I just read "The Babylon Bee" article "Blockage Cleared, Ships Moving At Record Speed As Chick-Fil-A Workers Put In Charge Of Suez Canal." Good humor.
Mar 30, 2021 16:49:51 GMT -5
worksforme2: Freezing temps in the morning for the next 3 days= no peaches in the fall for me unless I buy them,... 2 yrs in a row...growing my own fruit has proven to be a losing proposition
Apr 1, 2021 16:32:30 GMT -5
Handy: Meet the Feebles=weird!
Apr 1, 2021 18:22:06 GMT -5
jerri: Lots of interesting comments. I am way behind. Sending hugs and a kiss on the cheek💋
Apr 8, 2021 0:11:19 GMT -5
roy: Hi All, I just joined, at 77. I've been in a sexless marriage for too many years ...
Apr 9, 2021 15:26:32 GMT -5
petrushka: G'day Roy, welcome to the place most of us don't want to be. I am sure you will find lots of interesting personal stories and comments and reactions on the forum. Don't be shy about jumping in to talks ...
Apr 9, 2021 15:47:25 GMT -5