Post by solodriver on Jul 22, 2018 0:19:45 GMT -5
I guess what I'm dealing with now is looking at my future: alone and unhappy or alone and hopeful? I lean towards the "alone and hopeful" because at least I have a chance to find someone who I can share joy, happiness and sexuality with as opposed to "alone and unhappy" married which means NO chance of having those things I so desperately seeking, unless an AP would come into my life.
I won't be broke in a divorce but it may cost me a huge chunk of my retirement and having a large amount of debt accumulated in the marriage, which would probably be divided equally in a divorce, with the additional fees from that, means there will be very little money left to spend on anything extra. Any money that I make working and what little retirement I receive will be gone as soon as it hits the bank, so it will make it very difficult to meet and start a relationship if I can't even afford to take her out to dinner, a nice date or even to Starbuck's, let alone a nice romantic place if we were to hit it off.
My choices are to be somewhat financially stable staying married with the incomes that we have coming in or be divorced, spending all my money paying the bills with nothing extra left at all and alone because I can't provide a nice date to possibly meet someone.
That thought is really depressing me right now.