I’m feeling okay today. Thank God. Bc I’ve been feeling pretty crappy the last week. After coming home from work today I realized, I love my new apartment. It’s nothing anyone would look at and think it’s special, but it’s incredibly special to me and I’m blessed to have it. I’m trying to take inventory of what I’m thankful for, and it’s helping. I thought I would be homeless if I left 3 months ago...I’m blessed with a home. I thought I wouldn’t be able to afford living on my own...I got a promotion and a substantial raise. I thought I’d feel like everything is totally my fault in my failed marriage...today I don’t feel that way. Most of all I don’t feel lonely right now. I may not have family and friends here, but I work with a great group of people and for that I’m thankful. I’m also thankful for this board. Just wanted to write a little while feeling hopeful instead of mad/desperate/crazy. The other side looks bright today.
Keep in mind that this part of the process can see you oscillating between feeling good and at times feeling rotten. The feeling rotten bits usually becoming less often and less intense. The feeling good bits usually becoming more often and more intense.
The stories of Sister elle might be worth you reading in this regard.
smith227- I’m glad you’re starting to experience some good days! Those moments of regret and doubt are not fun or easy to live through. But- you’re getting stronger and you will have far more frequent good moments as you become used to your new normal. I’m happy for you!
smith227 I am also recently out of my SM deal and bounce between terrible, okay-ish and not so bad days too. As time goes on I do still have terrible days sure, but less of them now and probably not quite as crappy as often. It is taking a lot of work and purposeful distraction, often doing stuff I don’t really feel like doing in the moment but am grateful to have undertaken after the event. The advice to be found here really does work, but it’s hard so please be kind to yourself where you can.
This the "Shoutbox" -- basically a site-wide, group chat. (It's only visible to members.)
saarinista: is anyone else watching March Madness?
Mar 24, 2019 11:44:48 GMT -5
worksforme2: doesn't much look like it...
Mar 27, 2019 12:20:10 GMT -5
saarinista: Well, my team is going to the Final Four! I am beyond thrilled. Basketball is life.
Apr 1, 2019 0:47:14 GMT -5
misssunnybunny: Congrats! Yay! I don't know how many people see the shout box, I don't think it shows up not he mobile version of the site. Maybe post something in the Off Topic section and more folks may see it?
Apr 1, 2019 15:38:34 GMT -5
wewbwb: Or, maybe baseball season started . . .
Apr 2, 2019 5:27:34 GMT -5
flashjohn: saarinista, my alma mater, Texas Tech, is also in the final four.
Apr 3, 2019 14:59:01 GMT -5
saarinista: : flashjohn Ruh, roh. Then we have to be mortal enemies for the weekend because I went to MSU!
Apr 4, 2019 16:09:20 GMT -5
worksforme2: The add attachment says a max of 1mb...I see plenty of videos that are way longer than that...how do I do that? My video is 4.97 mbs
Apr 25, 2019 20:10:25 GMT -5
h: The videos posted aren't attached. They are links to videos outside the site.
Apr 26, 2019 14:09:04 GMT -5
sexlessinga: Hi guys just joined
May 10, 2019 20:49:28 GMT -5
worksforme2: @mslowmaintenance….long time no see, welcome back...
May 29, 2019 9:30:25 GMT -5
noregretz: You can never outrun a Grizzly bear, but that's ok. You only have to outrun the person you're with....
Jun 15, 2019 12:28:09 GMT -5
solodriver: or in this case your refuser.
Jun 16, 2019 19:21:47 GMT -5