Update: interesting turn. Not for sure where it goes. Husband had HUGE boner and woke me up with it this morning.
I wasn’t in the mood but was curious because when I said I wasn’t in the mood (sleepily) he kept on. I have told him in the distant past - that I didn’t care if he woke me up, so I obliged.
Anywho - have to say that even though it was not only out of norm, it was also different then previous times or “resets”.
It’s still... awkward for me if I am sober.
He did bury his head in my hair and told me how amazing I smelled - I have always wondered if my particular pheromones turned him off - so that was an interesting difference too. The mindfuck of the last 15 years made that hard to believe and I was completely self conscious with being sober, just waking up and not having yet brushed my teeth. Worrying about my lack of grooming and my body overall.
I made him get a condom because he still refuses to get snipped and I am not getting pregnant at 42... he was reluctant, but eventually did it.
Can I just say? I know this is TMI - but when we first got together - he had a HUGE penis to me. Biggest I had ever had. This morning - it was much harder than I could remember in those last bad 15 years. Like from before the issues.
And he always gets off even when I started it - but this time was a little fast and furious. He needs work. However, I do too. It’s was like two fat teenagers doing it for the first time and this time - I was the lazy one
This time took 15 years - but I do see a spark that did not leave me desperate for more. I was okay with it - and even though I didn’t get off - I was pretty close.
Again - this does not a turn-around make. His new libido could be nothing at all and could get me cheated on, honestly, but it is a start.
Night!