endthegame
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Post by endthegame on Mar 8, 2019 18:48:55 GMT -5
Eulogy
It's a shame you couldn't allow yourself to be loved, for all those years It's a shame I couldn't love you, you never let me in.
What a waste
It's a shame you hid from me, from the world, from your friends and family It's a shame I allowed myself to become isolated to placate your fears
What a waste
It's a shame you didn't seek help and feared looking inwards more than losing me It's a shame I spent all those years trying to look into you, chasing the why
What a waste
It's a shame your obsessive behaviour and paranoia grew It's a shame I allowed myself to be manipulated so I didn't rule my own life
What a waste
It's a shame you never stopped taking It's a shame eventually I had nothing left to give, my life stood still for so many years
What a waste, but actually - NOT There came a time when I said fuck it, no more
It's a joy I looked into myself It's a shame you could not
It's a joy I read and learned It's a shame you did not
It's a joy I grew in ways that surpassed my wildest expectations It's a shame you can't get off your treadmill
It's a joy I strive to be the best version of me I can be It's a shame you can't get off your treadmill
It's a joy I can love again It's a shame you can not
It wasn't me, never was Should have left sooner
And now for a hymn to remind us what's really happening when they say "I want you back"
I now live in MY house situated in Opposite Land
Sexless Marriage RIP
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Post by shamwow on Mar 8, 2019 19:39:20 GMT -5
Henry Rollins is a badass btw
Hadn't thought of that song as it pertained to my former SM, but it is a great fit!
It gets even better as your SM becomes a fading memory and even better when you hardly think of it at all.
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Eulogy
Mar 9, 2019 21:32:59 GMT -5
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Post by ironhamster on Mar 9, 2019 21:32:59 GMT -5
I'm a long time fan, from his black flag days. He's taken on the roll of a speaker for hire, though, and I hate that shit, because his politics is the suck up to the crowd variety. Hey, we all have to do something for an income, but I wish he'd tell it like it is instead of telling the crowd what they want to hear, or, just shut up and sing. Welcome to OppositeLand, endthegame. A toast to you, the end of misery, and to success in your hunt for happiness.
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Post by baza on Mar 10, 2019 1:45:13 GMT -5
It's a relief to take off the concrete boots don't you reckon ETG.
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endthegame
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Post by endthegame on Mar 11, 2019 15:19:43 GMT -5
I'm wearing slippers and fluffy socks at the moment. The concrete has gone, the intractable problem gone. My biggest problem right now is if I should eat chocolate or dunk biscuits in my tea. In truth my life's not easy, but it's better.
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Eulogy
Mar 11, 2019 18:10:57 GMT -5
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Post by ironhamster on Mar 11, 2019 18:10:57 GMT -5
I'm wearing slippers and fluffy socks at the moment. The concrete has gone, the intractable problem gone. My biggest problem right now is if I should eat chocolate or dunk biscuits in my tea. In truth my life's not easy, but it's better. I can identify with life not being easy, but better. Truthfully, life was not easy before the split, either, which is why the split finally finally happened. I hope you find your solution to your lesser problems, also. In my case, the choice is dark or light chocolate.
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endthegame
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Post by endthegame on Mar 12, 2019 14:01:54 GMT -5
Thats a good problem to have.
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