Post by ggold on Nov 10, 2017 23:31:38 GMT -5
One year ago today…
I took a risk. I met a man who would change my life forever.
We corresponded for a few weeks prior to our meeting. First, through PM’s on this forum and then through kik and actual phone calls and FaceTime. He told me I was the most gorgeous woman he had ever seen. He was flattering...maybe too flattering! I didn’t know what to think of him! How could a handsome, younger man be so interested in me? He was in a SM and was lonely just as I was. That was the answer I was certain.
He was away on business at a conference and had the perfect opportunity to come to NJ to visit me for a night. All I had to do was say yes, but I said no. I was afraid. He was a stranger. I was vulnerable. It would be reckless and irresponsible of me.
I quickly changed my mind. I told him to come to me. What the hell! I was already reckless. I was involved with a man I met through Ashley Madison. I had an affair for the first time in my life a few months earlier with another man. (All of which he knew about.) I had to meet him. Something deep within told me it was okay.
On November 10, 2016, we met. It was magical, spiritual, sexual, amazing. I never in my life experienced such soul connecting love making. Over and over and over again. (Search Hallelujah in forum for his perspective of this night.) I felt as if I knew him forever. I even whispered, “I love you,” to him. These words were not supposed to come out! This all didn’t make sense to me. I couldn’t love him. After this night, what would happen? He’d fly back to his wife and children and I’d go back to my life with my husband and kids. We’d go back to talking and texting. We’d FaceTime. I didn’t expect anything more.
I was so wrong. This beautiful man with a HUGE heart told me he needed to come to me and show me how I deserved to be loved. These are words I had written back in April in my journal after being unfaithful to my husband for the first time in 23 years. I wrote much more. I asked the Universe to send me my love. I listed the qualities I wanted in my forever love. I wrote and wrote, never expecting the Universe to respond. But she did. She sent me RexCorvus. He didn’t know about my journal. I showed him what I wrote a few months later. The man I wrote to was him. He embodied the qualities of the man I desired. He literally said words to me that I had written, without knowing I wrote them.
A year has passed and my life has changed. Rex saved me. I was heading down a path of self-destruction. I was unhappy. I was scared. I was lonely. I was being used. I thought that I wanted a life that included a LOT of exploring with different men. Rex has shown me that I am worthy of being loved for exactly WHO I am. He has helped me build up my self-confidence. I feel I am a better woman and mother because of his support. He has uplifted me and made me believe that there is hope for happiness. Happiness not only for me, but for us.
I committed myself to Rex. He and I have plans for our future. We have been shown the signs by the Universe/God that we are moving on the path towards one another. I know it may sound crazy, but we are crazy….crazy about each other.
Thank you to all who have kept us in your thoughts. We ask that you continue to send us positive vibes. We have a way to go (we are both in our marriages and are planning our exits)….but we truly feel deep within that it will happen. Rex and GGold...King and Queen. Forever.
I took a risk. I met a man who would change my life forever.
We corresponded for a few weeks prior to our meeting. First, through PM’s on this forum and then through kik and actual phone calls and FaceTime. He told me I was the most gorgeous woman he had ever seen. He was flattering...maybe too flattering! I didn’t know what to think of him! How could a handsome, younger man be so interested in me? He was in a SM and was lonely just as I was. That was the answer I was certain.
He was away on business at a conference and had the perfect opportunity to come to NJ to visit me for a night. All I had to do was say yes, but I said no. I was afraid. He was a stranger. I was vulnerable. It would be reckless and irresponsible of me.
I quickly changed my mind. I told him to come to me. What the hell! I was already reckless. I was involved with a man I met through Ashley Madison. I had an affair for the first time in my life a few months earlier with another man. (All of which he knew about.) I had to meet him. Something deep within told me it was okay.
On November 10, 2016, we met. It was magical, spiritual, sexual, amazing. I never in my life experienced such soul connecting love making. Over and over and over again. (Search Hallelujah in forum for his perspective of this night.) I felt as if I knew him forever. I even whispered, “I love you,” to him. These words were not supposed to come out! This all didn’t make sense to me. I couldn’t love him. After this night, what would happen? He’d fly back to his wife and children and I’d go back to my life with my husband and kids. We’d go back to talking and texting. We’d FaceTime. I didn’t expect anything more.
I was so wrong. This beautiful man with a HUGE heart told me he needed to come to me and show me how I deserved to be loved. These are words I had written back in April in my journal after being unfaithful to my husband for the first time in 23 years. I wrote much more. I asked the Universe to send me my love. I listed the qualities I wanted in my forever love. I wrote and wrote, never expecting the Universe to respond. But she did. She sent me RexCorvus. He didn’t know about my journal. I showed him what I wrote a few months later. The man I wrote to was him. He embodied the qualities of the man I desired. He literally said words to me that I had written, without knowing I wrote them.
A year has passed and my life has changed. Rex saved me. I was heading down a path of self-destruction. I was unhappy. I was scared. I was lonely. I was being used. I thought that I wanted a life that included a LOT of exploring with different men. Rex has shown me that I am worthy of being loved for exactly WHO I am. He has helped me build up my self-confidence. I feel I am a better woman and mother because of his support. He has uplifted me and made me believe that there is hope for happiness. Happiness not only for me, but for us.
I committed myself to Rex. He and I have plans for our future. We have been shown the signs by the Universe/God that we are moving on the path towards one another. I know it may sound crazy, but we are crazy….crazy about each other.
Thank you to all who have kept us in your thoughts. We ask that you continue to send us positive vibes. We have a way to go (we are both in our marriages and are planning our exits)….but we truly feel deep within that it will happen. Rex and GGold...King and Queen. Forever.