So this morning, I was strolling around my favorite grocery store, feeling calm and relaxed, limping slowly down the aisles because of a foot injury. An older couple (maybe late 50s) were coming my way, and even though I never heard clearly what the guy said, his body language, and the look on her face, as she was trailing behind him told me everything. In just seconds, I picked up the energy and negative vibes between them. Her facial expression was one I’d worn many times in my own SM. It conveyed the message, “I’m not being listened to. He’s dismissing me. I feel frustrated and tired.”😓
It’s amazing what our senses intuit from just the vibes, body language, and facial expressions in mere seconds. I felt sad for her, but also relieved for myself. Yes, life can be very lonely as a single person, especially for me who lives in solitude, and shuns the mainstream of life, but God was I thankful that I didn’t have to deal with a stressful relationship, one that would have me trailing behind a man in the grocery store feeling how that woman looked. I’ve been there, done that. I remember years of trailing my husband in the grocery store just like that feeling dismissed and insignificant to him.
I can just imagine how she (maybe both of them) would feel arriving home, and having lunch with that tension between them. On the other hand, I felt fortunate to go home in peace, make myself a nice lunch, and not have to deal with the hostile behavior/wants/needs of another person. I walked over to introduce myself to a new neighbor, I’d never met before, and had a pleasant conversation overlooking a spectacular view, on a warm and sunny day. No tension. No stress. Just peace.
Even with the loneliness, I sometimes think I’m the lucky one.
Post by GeekGoddess on Oct 25, 2017 22:48:49 GMT -5
This post is thrilling to read. I remember that trailing behind too. The feeling of “I’m right HERE, why/how did I get so insignificant?” I remember often my middle stepdaughter talking to me after her dad had told her news of the divorce. She said she asked if I told him why I wanted to divorce and he said, “GG says I’m mean to her” I chuckled a bit. I said “not exactly but..,” and her next words were: I asked him, don’t you think she has a point? I love that girl. I’m so, so grateful to be out. Even alone. It’s better, for me.